The bird, in her song says, "Wish I could be a fish, and be part of the fishdom, but I was born a bird. Such beauty exists in his world. I have the sky where I can see the rainbows and sunsets and they are beautiful as well. Why have I become a bird when all my life I have dreamt of being with the sea?" -Keoni's Notebook
No Me Ames
6/30/04 raffy_antonio15 Zeliah
raffy_antonio15 (2:44:35 AM): stil awake?
Zeliah (2:44:41 AM): lol
Zeliah (2:44:42 AM): uhuh
raffy_antonio15 (2:45:30 AM): sandali ha na inlove ako page mo, i like d color (wait I'm inlove with your page, i like the color)
Zeliah (2:45:35 AM): naku po (oh dear!)
Zeliah (2:45:36 AM): susme (uhmm)
Zeliah (2:45:37 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (2:45:39 AM): ala ey (you dont say?)
Zeliah (2:45:40 AM): lol
raffy_antonio15 (2:46:37 AM): lam mo wen im staring at it, parang i can feel how a gentle person u r (know what when I'm staring at it, its like I can feel.......)
raffy_antonio15 (2:46:48 AM): parang ang sarapsarap mong mahalin (Its as if it would be so 'delicious' to love you)
Zeliah (2:47:33 AM): naku po (oh dear)
Zeliah (2:47:36 AM): diyos mio (my gosh)
Zeliah (2:47:42 AM): alam mo gutom lang yan (know what? you're just hungry)
Zeliah (2:47:51 AM): wag ako dahil may mahal na ako (do not me for I love someone else)
Zeliah (2:47:59 AM): kaso oh well (but...oh well)
raffy_antonio15 (2:48:03 AM): d po no katatapos ko lang kmain (nope im not hungry I just finished eating)
Zeliah (2:48:03 AM): mahal ko ang diyos na lang (I love god instead)
Zeliah (2:48:14 AM): para at least no etching o ha (so there are no games)
Zeliah (2:48:15 AM): lol
raffy_antonio15 (2:48:31 AM): bkit pwede ka namang mahalin di ba (why? Its ok to love you, right?)
raffy_antonio15 (2:48:42 AM): without asking u to love me in return
Zeliah (2:49:31 AM): no dont do that
Zeliah (2:49:34 AM): thats very lonely
raffy_antonio15 (2:50:01 AM): d po no, loving someone isnt lonely (Nope loving someone...)
raffy_antonio15 (2:50:12 AM): thats d best thing in life
raffy_antonio15 (2:50:31 AM): if u learn how 2 love without waiting to b loved
raffy_antonio15 (2:50:35 AM): wow
raffy_antonio15 (2:50:39 AM): sarap po nun (thats the best)
Zeliah (2:51:29 AM): naku po (oh dear)
Zeliah (2:51:41 AM): wala akong masabi (I dont know what to say)
Zeliah (2:51:52 AM): sana ako rin matutuhan ko yan ( I hope I too learn that )
raffy_antonio15 (2:52:09 AM): dont say a word u dont have 2
Zeliah (2:53:31 AM): I think I already do love someone
Zeliah (2:53:35 AM): but oh well
Zeliah (2:53:38 AM): naku po (oh dear)
Zeliah (2:53:46 AM): kilala ba kita (do I know you?)
raffy_antonio15 (2:54:32 AM): nope,
raffy_antonio15 (2:55:00 AM): like u i dont know u
Zeliah (2:55:12 AM): hmmm
raffy_antonio15 (2:55:16 AM): but i i know i fel something 4 u
Zeliah (2:55:29 AM): naku po (oh dear!)
Zeliah (2:55:31 AM): pls dont
Zeliah (2:55:36 AM): my heart is already taken
Zeliah (2:55:41 AM): sorry
raffy_antonio15 (2:55:58 AM): bkit naman po, im not asking ur heart or anything (but why, im not .....)
raffy_antonio15 (2:56:25 AM): like i said u can love someone
raffy_antonio15 (2:56:31 AM): kahit d nya alam na (even if that person doesn't know that )
raffy_antonio15 (2:56:41 AM): mahal na mahal mo sya (you love them very much)
Zeliah (2:56:57 AM): oh my lord
Zeliah (2:56:59 AM): taga saan ka (where are you from?)
Zeliah (2:57:06 AM): and you sound like someone I know
Zeliah (2:57:08 AM): hmmmm
raffy_antonio15 (2:57:10 AM): somewer out here
raffy_antonio15 (2:57:46 AM): lam mo im happy like this (know what? im happy like this )
Zeliah (2:57:51 AM): you are?
Zeliah (2:57:53 AM): why?
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:01 AM): atleast i can "talk" 2 u
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:06 AM): once in a while
Zeliah (2:58:11 AM): naku po Onin is that you? (Oh dear, Onin...)
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:12 AM): nakikita kita (I can see you)
Zeliah (2:58:15 AM): huh
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:22 AM): nope
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:40 AM): im sure wev never met
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:47 AM): in this life
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:49 AM): for sure
raffy_antonio15 (2:58:52 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (2:59:13 AM): hmmm
Zeliah (2:59:14 AM): ok
raffy_antonio15 (2:59:27 AM): sana wag ikaw galit sa kin (I hope you are not angry with me)
raffy_antonio15 (2:59:41 AM): for loving u
Zeliah (3:00:04 AM): naku po (oh dear)
Zeliah (3:00:08 AM): naku po (oh dear)
Zeliah (3:00:10 AM): sige (ok)
Zeliah (3:00:12 AM): love mo ko (so? you love me)
Zeliah (3:00:15 AM): ako love ko si lord (me I love Lord)
Zeliah (3:00:23 AM): hinde mo naman ako kilala pano mo ko love (you don't even know me how can you love me)
Zeliah (3:00:26 AM): hinde possible yun (that just isn't possible)
raffy_antonio15 (3:00:52 AM): wel diba po hindi mo rin kilala c lord "personally" (well you don't know Lord "personally")
raffy_antonio15 (3:01:01 AM): pero love sya unconditionaly (but you love him unconditionally)
raffy_antonio15 (3:01:04 AM): diba (right?)
Zeliah (3:01:20 AM): nax magaling (hmm sharp)
Zeliah (3:01:24 AM): smart
raffy_antonio15 (3:01:24 AM): so maybe i havent seen u personnaly
Zeliah (3:01:25 AM): ok
Zeliah (3:01:27 AM): hmmm
Zeliah (3:01:31 AM): so why do you love me?
Zeliah (3:01:33 AM): aber? (well?)
raffy_antonio15 (3:01:36 AM): pero deep here i know u
raffy_antonio15 (3:01:50 AM): hirap tanong mo (your question is hard to answer)
raffy_antonio15 (3:02:11 AM): pero ill try not 2 answer
raffy_antonio15 (3:02:36 AM): kse hindi naman sinasagot yun tanong na un (coz those question are not to be answered)
raffy_antonio15 (3:02:57 AM): kse pag may reason why u love someone (because if you have a reason as to why you love someone)
raffy_antonio15 (3:03:04 AM): its not a good love
raffy_antonio15 (3:03:14 AM): kse pano kung mawala un reason na un (coz what happens when that reason dissappears)
Zeliah (3:03:22 AM): nax
Zeliah (3:03:28 AM): look pakita ka nga sa cam (show yourself on cam)
Zeliah (3:03:35 AM): kasi kilala kita im sure of it (I know you im sure of it)
raffy_antonio15 (3:03:36 AM): di ba mas masarap un love mo lang sya 4 no reason at all (I think its better if you love the person for no reason at all)
raffy_antonio15 (3:04:06 AM): i swear in my fathers grave d mo po ko kilala (you don't know me)
Zeliah (3:04:10 AM): ok
Zeliah (3:04:13 AM): pakita ka (show yourself)
raffy_antonio15 (3:04:29 AM): ayaw ko nga eh kung ma inlove ka din sa kin ( I don't want to in case you fall in love with me too)
raffy_antonio15 (3:04:30 AM): lol
Zeliah (3:04:57 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (3:04:58 AM): naku po (oh dear)
Zeliah (3:05:07 AM): no one looks better than god to me
Zeliah (3:05:19 AM): so no one can take me away from him anymore
Zeliah (3:05:20 AM): im serious
raffy_antonio15 (3:05:31 AM): and i believe u
Zeliah (3:06:00 AM): so if I dont know you
raffy_antonio15 (3:06:04 AM): kaya nga d2 ako 2 luk 4 u (thats why im here to look for you) <----????say what?
Zeliah (3:06:06 AM): why the mystery
raffy_antonio15 (3:06:29 AM): mystery? wala lang (oh nothing)
raffy_antonio15 (3:07:19 AM): actually der r so many mistery happening to us
raffy_antonio15 (3:07:27 AM): but we didnt notice it
raffy_antonio15 (3:07:48 AM): parang ito "kausap" kita (just like me talking to you)
Zeliah (3:07:56 AM): hmmm
Zeliah (3:07:59 AM): susme (geez)
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:06 AM): i stil remember wen i saw u
Zeliah (3:08:07 AM): you are very smart
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:11 AM): malungkot (sad)
Zeliah (3:08:15 AM): ok when you saw me?
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:16 AM): parang iiyak (teary eyed)
Zeliah (3:08:27 AM): huh
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:27 AM): so depressed
Zeliah (3:08:30 AM): kailan yun (when?)
Zeliah (3:08:31 AM): lol
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:33 AM): but so brave
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:42 AM): tapang mo nga eh (you were so brave)
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:47 AM): u know y?
Zeliah (3:08:54 AM): hmmm
raffy_antonio15 (3:08:59 AM): kse un napili mong kakampi (coz the person you chose as your defender)
raffy_antonio15 (3:09:09 AM): HE's so great
Zeliah (3:09:16 AM): huh
Zeliah (3:09:20 AM): you are freaking me out
Zeliah (3:09:25 AM): what are you talking about
Zeliah (3:09:27 AM): waaaaaaaaah
Zeliah (3:09:37 AM): too many men like you seem to want to talk to me
Zeliah (3:09:41 AM): I dont like games
Zeliah (3:09:47 AM): just simple friendship will do
Zeliah (3:09:51 AM): simple lang ako (I'm just simple)
raffy_antonio15 (3:09:53 AM): ah ok
Zeliah (3:09:55 AM): diba sabi ko (I told you, remember?)
Zeliah (3:09:58 AM): ano ba yun (what was that?)
raffy_antonio15 (3:09:58 AM): sensya na po (I apologise)
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:17 AM): so how did you do your page?
Zeliah (3:10:22 AM): wait
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:22 AM): sobrang (it's so)
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:29 AM): ano bang tamang word (whats the word?)
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:31 AM): ganda (pretty)
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:33 AM): nope
Zeliah (3:10:33 AM): ano yung sinasabi mo kanina about when you first saw me (what were you saying earlier about ....)
Zeliah (3:10:34 AM): lol
Zeliah (3:10:43 AM): lol nax (hmm)
Zeliah (3:10:45 AM): smooth
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:45 AM): expression lang po un (thats just and expression)
Zeliah (3:10:51 AM): uhhhmm
Zeliah (3:10:52 AM): lol
Zeliah (3:10:58 AM): I must admit
raffy_antonio15 (3:10:59 AM): parang ang sarap kainin (as if it would be delicious to eat) <----- say what again??
Zeliah (3:11:03 AM): you got me thinking
Zeliah (3:11:04 AM): ok
Zeliah (3:11:08 AM): ty i think
Zeliah (3:11:08 AM): lol
raffy_antonio15 (3:11:49 AM): i jst hope we can be friends, a simple freindship
Zeliah (3:11:54 AM): definitely
raffy_antonio15 (3:11:56 AM): like u said
Zeliah (3:11:57 AM): just be real to me
Zeliah (3:12:01 AM): and no games
Zeliah (3:12:04 AM): I like honesty
raffy_antonio15 (3:12:07 AM): this is wat i am
Zeliah (3:12:07 AM): and openness
Zeliah (3:12:13 AM): no mystery
Zeliah (3:12:15 AM): im not into that
Zeliah (3:12:20 AM): if you want to get to know me
Zeliah (3:12:23 AM): you have to be real to me
raffy_antonio15 (3:12:38 AM): wat u got is the real me
raffy_antonio15 (3:12:57 AM): wat if im really a mystery
raffy_antonio15 (3:13:06 AM): ayaw mo na po usap sa kin (you wont want to talk to me?)
Zeliah (3:13:22 AM): then I guess I too will be a mystery
Zeliah (3:13:31 AM): because I am a reflection of you
Zeliah (3:13:33 AM): in reality
Zeliah (3:13:39 AM): if you wish to be this way
raffy_antonio15 (3:13:40 AM): wer u r already a mystery for me
Zeliah (3:13:53 AM): I c
Zeliah (3:16:19 AM): oh dear
Zeliah (3:16:25 AM): now you just dissappeared
Zeliah (3:16:31 AM): is this part of the mystery too
raffy_antonio15 (3:16:32 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (3:16:32 AM): lol
raffy_antonio15 (3:16:41 AM): nope d2 lang me reading (Nope im just here reading)
Zeliah (3:16:58 AM): reading?
raffy_antonio15 (3:16:58 AM): dont love me bcoz im lost
raffy_antonio15 (3:17:12 AM): bcoz i cant stay
raffy_antonio15 (3:17:26 AM): we mirror each other
raffy_antonio15 (3:17:40 AM): n u r my reflection
Zeliah (3:17:53 AM): hmmm
Zeliah (3:18:00 AM): that is a song I translated
raffy_antonio15 (3:18:08 AM): yup
Zeliah (3:18:09 AM): i know each sentence by heart
Zeliah (3:18:11 AM):
Zeliah (3:18:18 AM): its very romantic
Zeliah (3:18:35 AM): the song itself can be understood even if you cannot speak Spanish
raffy_antonio15 (3:18:42 AM): n now its word is written on my heart
Zeliah (3:18:42 AM): which makes it universal
Zeliah (3:18:48 AM): oh lord
Zeliah (3:18:56 AM): I need to sleep
Zeliah (3:19:03 AM): you are not the first to act this way
Zeliah (3:19:07 AM): and you wont be the last
raffy_antonio15 (3:19:09 AM): okei gudnayt my dear
Zeliah (3:19:12 AM): but to be honest
Zeliah (3:19:15 AM): I am tired
Zeliah (3:19:18 AM): and I am scared
Zeliah (3:19:23 AM): of mystery
Zeliah (3:19:28 AM): I really prefer reality
Zeliah (3:19:35 AM): and honesty
Zeliah (3:19:42 AM): so I apologize
Zeliah (3:19:50 AM): hope you find the right person for you
raffy_antonio15 (3:19:55 AM): dont be like i said un kakampi mo, HE wil never ever let u (your defender)
Zeliah (3:19:57 AM): good nite and good lcuk
Zeliah (3:20:12 AM): don't love me
raffy_antonio15 (3:20:12 AM): so is dis gudbye?
Zeliah (3:20:28 AM): I dont want to be loved anymore
Zeliah (3:20:46 AM): I am tired of hurting others when I cannot return their love
raffy_antonio15 (3:20:55 AM): wel i simply say i dont love u nomore
Zeliah (3:20:56 AM): it hurts me to let others down
Zeliah (3:21:03 AM): ok
Zeliah (3:21:04 AM): good
Zeliah (3:21:14 AM): then buti ka pa (then good for you)
raffy_antonio15 (3:21:21 AM): but how wil u know wat i really feel
Zeliah (3:21:34 AM): you are not lying to me but to yourself
Zeliah (3:21:36 AM): you cant love me
Zeliah (3:21:44 AM): you only met me a day ago
Zeliah (3:21:54 AM): love is not like that
Zeliah (3:21:57 AM): love takes time
raffy_antonio15 (3:21:59 AM): yes i can love u n thats a fact u cant deny
Zeliah (3:22:06 AM): oh dear
Zeliah (3:22:13 AM): how old are you?
raffy_antonio15 (3:22:26 AM): old enough to love
raffy_antonio15 (3:22:39 AM): hey dont worry about it
Zeliah (3:22:41 AM): oh
Zeliah (3:22:47 AM): so you're not 15?
raffy_antonio15 (3:22:52 AM): loke i said i just want 2 love u n dats it
Zeliah (3:23:05 AM): why do you hide behind that sn
raffy_antonio15 (3:23:05 AM): nope im not 15
raffy_antonio15 (3:23:17 AM): thats my birth date
raffy_antonio15 (3:23:23 AM): jan 15
Zeliah (3:23:33 AM): ok
Zeliah (3:23:39 AM): what else
Zeliah (3:23:43 AM): thats a start
Zeliah (3:23:45 AM): go on
raffy_antonio15 (3:23:48 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (3:23:51 AM): im about to make you famous
raffy_antonio15 (3:23:56 AM): and thats d end
Zeliah (3:24:08 AM): before you said your birthdate I was going to post this convi on my site
Zeliah (3:24:11 AM): hmm
Zeliah (3:24:14 AM): thats it
Zeliah (3:24:16 AM): oh well
Zeliah (3:24:23 AM): what can I say
Zeliah (3:24:28 AM): you are very informative huh
raffy_antonio15 (3:24:42 AM):
raffy_antonio15 (3:24:58 AM): salamat talaga (thank you, really)
Zeliah (3:25:10 AM): salamat? (thank you?)
raffy_antonio15 (3:25:32 AM): opo (uhuh)
raffy_antonio15 (3:25:36 AM): salamat po (thank you)
Zeliah (3:25:55 AM): salamat for what? (thank you for what?)
raffy_antonio15 (3:26:26 AM): thanks for
raffy_antonio15 (3:26:35 AM): letting me
raffy_antonio15 (3:26:39 AM): find u
Zeliah (3:27:01 AM): oh gosh
Zeliah (3:27:07 AM): tama na (no more)
Zeliah (3:27:09 AM): pls
raffy_antonio15 (3:27:12 AM): k
Zeliah (3:27:15 AM): this is not real
raffy_antonio15 (3:27:21 AM): sino po c kamval? (who is kamval?)
Zeliah (3:27:23 AM): I know you are probably real
Zeliah (3:27:25 AM): pero alam mo (but, know what?)
Zeliah (3:27:32 AM): I am very hurt right now
raffy_antonio15 (3:27:36 AM): r they really twins
Zeliah (3:27:41 AM): and I just lost someone I love
Zeliah (3:27:46 AM): kamval is my friend
Zeliah (3:27:59 AM): we call each other kamval because we sound alike
raffy_antonio15 (3:27:59 AM): kamval po sila talaga (are you really twins?)
raffy_antonio15 (3:28:05 AM): a i c
Zeliah (3:28:06 AM): and we have the same voice
Zeliah (3:28:13 AM): i mean similar face
Zeliah (3:28:18 AM): nalilito tuloy ako (im getting confused)
raffy_antonio15 (3:28:23 AM): saan (with what)
raffy_antonio15 (3:28:28 AM): pag kaharap mo sya (when you face her?)
Zeliah (3:28:40 AM): look raffy
raffy_antonio15 (3:28:40 AM): kala mo nakaharap ka sa mirror (you think you are facing a mirror)
Zeliah (3:28:47 AM): taga saan ka (where are you from?)
Zeliah (3:28:52 AM): and how old are you
Zeliah (3:28:58 AM): where is your picture
Zeliah (3:29:05 AM): and what do you do
Zeliah (3:29:11 AM): all the things you know of me
raffy_antonio15 (3:29:21 AM): grabe parang interogation ng fbi (golly, like an fbi interrogation)
Zeliah (3:29:26 AM): dont you think it would be nice if I knew you too
raffy_antonio15 (3:29:47 AM): nope trust me its better this way
Zeliah (3:29:50 AM): why
Zeliah (3:30:01 AM): why is it better this way
raffy_antonio15 (3:30:37 AM): kse if u loose something u didnt have, diba wala lang (it wont be so bad)
Zeliah (3:31:01 AM): hmmm
Zeliah (3:31:09 AM): then I shall fade as you wish
raffy_antonio15 (3:31:10 AM): like nakawala ka ng pera na d mo alam na nsa bulsa mo k lang (like when you lose money and it was in your pocket all along)
Zeliah (3:31:11 AM): take care
Zeliah (3:31:20 AM): and thank you for your kind words
Zeliah (3:31:32 AM): but I think love is forever lost to me
raffy_antonio15 (3:31:41 AM): 
Zeliah (3:31:43 AM): and I will not, shall not find it again
Zeliah (3:31:49 AM): I apologize
Zeliah (3:32:05 AM): and may you find the right person for you.
raffy_antonio15 (3:32:31 AM): hey i dis agree wid that u jst find love wid HIM di ba
Zeliah (3:33:06 AM): My love for god is incomparable to my love for any man
Zeliah (3:33:12 AM): its not even in the same dimension
Zeliah (3:33:31 AM): so it is therefore not in the same category
Zeliah (3:33:41 AM): please I am not willing to play games
Zeliah (3:33:48 AM): I am alone right now
Zeliah (3:33:53 AM): I choose to be
Zeliah (3:33:59 AM): and I will continue to be
Zeliah (3:34:04 AM): love is about letting go
Zeliah (3:34:13 AM): so if you love me so much after just one day
Zeliah (3:34:16 AM): you will let me go
Zeliah (3:34:24 AM): take care Raffy
Zeliah (3:34:27 AM): and goodbye
Zeliah (3:34:52 AM): unless you feel the need to stop these games
Zeliah (3:34:55 AM): I beg you
Zeliah (3:34:57 AM): leave me be
Zeliah (3:35:39 AM): I want to love the one person I forgot all these years
Zeliah (3:35:41 AM): ME
Zeliah (3:35:51 AM): thank you
Zeliah (3:35:59 AM): farewell
Zeliah (3:39:28 AM): No Me Ames = Don't love me.
raffy_antonio15 (3:39:48 AM): sori but i cant
raffy_antonio15 (3:40:14 AM): i wil obey all those thing u said
raffy_antonio15 (3:40:25 AM): but not loving u
Zeliah (3:40:38 AM): the song on the site befits
Zeliah (3:40:44 AM): No me Ames
Zeliah (3:40:51 AM): I can't take another pain
raffy_antonio15 (3:40:56 AM): u can ignor me 4 d rest of ur life
Zeliah (3:41:01 AM): and I dont want to be responsible for your heart
Zeliah (3:41:06 AM): Onin alam ko ikaw yan (Onin I know thats you)
raffy_antonio15 (3:41:06 AM): but u cant stop me 4 loving u
Zeliah (3:41:09 AM): kilala kita (I know you)
Zeliah (3:41:17 AM): i know thats you
raffy_antonio15 (3:41:30 AM): can u tel me who onin is?
Zeliah (3:41:37 AM): he claims to love me too
Zeliah (3:41:43 AM): marami sila (there are a few)
Zeliah (3:41:52 AM): but you talk like Onin
raffy_antonio15 (3:42:00 AM): but im dif
Zeliah (3:42:03 AM): he is just as determined as you
Zeliah (3:42:05 AM): oh?
Zeliah (3:42:10 AM): many have said that too
raffy_antonio15 (3:42:20 AM): im not claimimg that i luv u
raffy_antonio15 (3:43:05 AM): i luv u.
Zeliah (3:43:38 AM): Even in your own sanity this must seem insane
Zeliah (3:43:54 AM): forgive me I am not convinced in the least
raffy_antonio15 (3:44:07 AM): ok lang po
raffy_antonio15 (3:44:22 AM): wel u can forget about it
raffy_antonio15 (3:44:48 AM): atleast maybe we can still be
raffy_antonio15 (3:44:52 AM): what
raffy_antonio15 (3:44:55 AM): ?
Zeliah (3:45:30 AM): Raffy I am merely trying to vent everything through that site
Zeliah (3:45:43 AM): its a fraction of my personality
Zeliah (3:46:20 AM): I will repeat again No me Ames
Zeliah (3:46:21 AM): pls
Zeliah (3:46:32 AM): don't make me responsible for another heart
raffy_antonio15 (3:46:33 AM): ur tired
raffy_antonio15 (3:46:41 AM): n nid to sleep
Zeliah (3:46:41 AM): for another person's feelings
Zeliah (3:46:45 AM): I dont sleep
raffy_antonio15 (3:46:47 AM): pahinga na po ikaw
raffy_antonio15 (3:47:08 AM): ok but can we talk bout something
Zeliah (3:47:12 AM): I have to write
Zeliah (3:47:17 AM): no its ok
Zeliah (3:47:21 AM): I have to go
Zeliah (3:47:26 AM): take care of yourself
raffy_antonio15 (3:47:27 AM): write? wat?
Zeliah (3:47:48 AM): thank you for being kind to me
Zeliah (3:48:00 AM): take care
raffy_antonio15 (3:48:34 AM): ok, but can i visit ur site, fr time 2 time?
Zeliah (3:48:43 AM): yes you are welcome to
Zeliah (3:48:49 AM): you are about to become famous
Zeliah (3:48:56 AM): sorry =)
raffy_antonio15 (3:48:59 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (3:49:12 AM): but I am hoping if I publish this
Zeliah (3:49:20 AM): maybe there will be less incident like this
raffy_antonio15 (3:49:55 AM): wel, i dont now wat 2 say
Zeliah (3:50:00 AM): I am too emotional and it really affects me when I am responsible for other peoples feelings
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:05 AM): if u can b sure dat i wil
Zeliah (3:50:18 AM): you are not the first but I hope you will be the last
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:19 AM): never bother u again
Zeliah (3:50:22 AM): I pray at least
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:39 AM): but if u nid someone 2 talk wid
Zeliah (3:50:39 AM): I just want people to be real
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:47 AM): d2 lang ako (I'm just here)
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:49 AM): always
Zeliah (3:50:50 AM): as in just talk about the weather
Zeliah (3:50:52 AM): geez
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:54 AM): watching u
Zeliah (3:50:57 AM): whatever happened to
raffy_antonio15 (3:50:59 AM): n loving u
Zeliah (3:51:00 AM): Im blah blah blah
raffy_antonio15 (3:51:01 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (3:51:03 AM): i live in
Zeliah (3:51:05 AM): blah blah
Zeliah (3:51:11 AM): i work as blah blah blah
Zeliah (3:51:21 AM): i am married but I wont tell you blah blah
raffy_antonio15 (3:51:29 AM): hahaha
Zeliah (3:51:39 AM): and I have kids but I wont tell you that either blah blah blah
raffy_antonio15 (3:51:43 AM): baliw (ur crazy)
Zeliah (3:51:48 AM): what happened to normal conversations
Zeliah (3:52:00 AM): I never thought I would crave normal stuff
Zeliah (3:52:02 AM): but I do
Zeliah (3:52:06 AM): I crave honesty
raffy_antonio15 (3:52:12 AM): hey i promised u onething
Zeliah (3:52:16 AM): why does it seem to be lost to the rest of the world
Zeliah (3:52:28 AM): is it really that hard
raffy_antonio15 (3:52:30 AM): if times come u'll now everything on me
Zeliah (3:52:45 AM): to just open up
Zeliah (3:52:48 AM): I do it everyday
raffy_antonio15 (3:52:49 AM): n i hope ull write it
Zeliah (3:52:55 AM): to everyone I meet
Zeliah (3:53:08 AM): you hope Ill write about it
raffy_antonio15 (3:53:42 AM): THANKS!
Zeliah (3:54:32 AM): so far I know you were born in jan 15 so does 2.6 million others in the world
Zeliah (3:55:02 AM): thanks???
Zeliah (3:55:14 AM): know what thanks
Zeliah (3:55:27 AM): I can't sleep as usual and I have a lot of work for sure
Zeliah (3:55:46 AM): but you gave me an idea today that I should have thought of before
Zeliah (3:56:03 AM): at least there is that
Zeliah (3:56:30 AM): so say cheese, and have fun reading, bye
Zeliah: should I change your name?
raffy_antonio15: ?
Zeliah: I dont want to hurt anyone
Zeliah: if you have a gf
Zeliah: now is the time to tell me
Zeliah: I don't want her to read it on my site
Zeliah: then you end up fighting
raffy_antonio15: nope
Zeliah: then I wont change your sn?
raffy_antonio15: its ok
Zeliah: k
raffy_antonio15: u know more than one thing about me, u know 2 things
raffy_antonio15: my b day
raffy_antonio15: n the first and only girl i love
Zeliah: oh lord
Zeliah: hahahah
Zeliah: wala akong masabi (what can I say?)
Zeliah: lets hope you wake up
Zeliah: No me Ames
If you reached this far, thanks. Sometimes I feel like I'm standing in a room full of people and I am shouting yet no one hears me, no one wants to listen to me, no one even sees me, nor notices the blood that runs freely from the end of my arms. I am a person wrapped in words, searching for invisible answers and a meaning for this chaos that I call life.
My heart has turned cold like a million winters
NO ME AMES, how many more times must I say it..................
No Me Ames - Don't love me
I heard this song when I was only 18 and it was so romantic I cried. I found the Click here ----> video of it yesterday, and wanted to share it with you. Can you guess what the story is, based on the video alone? If not I have the translated verses below, for you, see how much I think of you all. To be loved unconditionally, and for as long as we live, more is the dream and may it come true for all of you. ENJOY
M: Tell me why you cry?
J: Of happiness
M: Why are you sad? 
J: From loneliness
M: And why are you with me, why hold these hands
M: This is crazy?
J: I love you so
M: But Why?
J: Don't be so hard-headed
J: Stop doubting me
J: Even if in the future the sky fades
J: I'm not afraid
J: I want to love you
M: Don't love me because you think I'm someone different
J: You don't think it's right
J: For us to spend this time together
M: Don't love me because I know what a lie it would be
J: Even if you don't think I deserve your love 
J: Don't love me
J: I will stay another day
M: Don't love me because I'm lost
M: Because I can't change the world
M: Because it's my destiny
M: Because I can't stay
M: We mirror each other
M: And you are my reflection
J: Don't love me
J: To be dying in a war of regret and sad thoughts
J: Don't love me
J: In this world only but forever for
J & M This great love deserves to soar high in the sky
M: I don't know what to say 
M: That's the truth
M: If people want to hurt us, they will
J: If you and I part now
J: They don't matter
J: But in this world
J: Don't leave me
M: Don't leave me
M: Don't leave me
M: Don't listen when I say I don't love you
J: Don't leave me
J: Stop breaking my heart with these "I don't love you's"
M: Don't love me
M: Because my heart is breaking
J: I said before its not possible. That its useless for
J: I will always love you
M: Don't love me
M: You have suffered enough
M: My heart has turned cold like a million winters
J: Don't love me
J: To forget about your gray days
J: I want to love you always
M: Don't love me
M: You and I are changing
M: One with the other
M: And always together
J: This love is like the sun
J: That comes out after a storm
J&M Like two comets in the same galaxy
M: Don't love me
J: Don't love me
M: Don't love me
What do you think? What is their story on this video? Why does he not want her to love him? Why does she continue to love him? It's so romantic I get emotional just watching it. I'll tell you tomorrow, what the story is. Morning 
I'm suddenly bombarded with more more than I can deal with. For two days life was easy, and quiet, but now that my boss is trying to impress some client from abroad, he wants everything "In Shape". I wonder if that includes him though 
. I still have to get the flash site up and running, not to mention, put all the ebooks that I've collected over the years, available to Friends. I was going to make it open to public, but since vital information in the wrong hands could backfire, alas I have had to set passwords, and those of you who would like to download ebooks about almost EVERYTHING under the sun, can email me for the password.
This was written by Remi J Chretien, and it's for Kate, this was taken from the book I told you about, enjoy 
SETTING GOALS 
• Becoming A True Believer
• The Definition of Happiness
• Determine Your Values
• Fuzzy or Clear?
• Building Self-Confidence and Self-Esteem
• Action Steps
BECOMING A TRUE BELIEVER
Every one of them has been amazed at the incredible power of goal setting and strategic planning. Every one of them has accomplished far more than they ever believed possible in selling and they ascribe their success to the deliberate process of thinking through every aspect of their work and their lives and then developing a detailed, written road map to get them to where they wanted to go.
THE DEFINITION OF HAPPINESS
Happiness has been defined as the progressive achievement of a worthy ideal or goal. When you are working progressively, step-by-step toward something that is important to you, you generate within yourself a continuous feeling of success and achievement. You feel more positive and motivated. You feel more in control of your own life. You feel happier and more fulfilled. You feel like a winner, and you soon develop the psychological momentum that enables you to overcome obstacles and plow through adversity as you move toward achieving the goals that are most important to you.
DETERMINE YOUR VALUES
Personal strategic planning begins with you determining what it is you believe in and stand for – your values. Your values lie at the very core of everything you are as a human being. Your values are the unifying principles and core beliefs of your personality and your character. The virtues and qualities that you stand for are what constitute the person you have become from the beginning of your life to this moment. Your values, virtues and inner beliefs are the axle around which the wheel of your life turns. All improvement in your life begins with you clarifying your true values and then committing yourself to live consistent with them. FUZZY OR CLEAR? Successful people are successful because they are very clear about their values. Unsuccessful people are fuzzy or unsure. Complete failures have no real values at all. 
BUILDING SELF-CONFIDENCE AND SELF-ESTEEM
Values clarification is the beginning exercise in building self-confidence, self-esteem and personal character. When you take the time to think through your fundamental values and then commit yourself to living your life consistent with them, you feel a surge of mental strength and well being. You feel stronger and more capable. You feel more centered in the universe and more confident of accomplishing the goals you set for yourself.
ACTION STEPS
Here are two things you can do immediately to put these ideas into action. First, decide for yourself what makes you truly happy and then organize your life around it. Write down your goals and make plans to achieve them. Second, begin with your values by deciding what it is you stand for and believe in. Commit yourself to live consistent with your inner most convictions – and you'll never make another mistake.
"Big goals get big results. No goals gets no results or somebody else's results." – Mark Victor Hansen
For those that took the time and ask me if I am ok, and those who wrote me emails to remind me that they are always there for me. THANK YOU! I will be ok, there is always a new day, and a tomorrow no matter what happens. I am luckier than most. I have friends that are there and continue to be for years to come. Anawara thank you for always being there no matter how far. To everyone who called and to all those who took the time to find me on yahoo, even though I am almost always on invisible. Thank you. Thank you!
I know you are going to ask this, so I'm going to answer it now, in public so I don't have to repeat it another 30 times LMAO. We made the decision together, and as to whether it was right, well I don't know. I can tell you it was difficult, but I believe and thats whats important, and yep there won't be too many personal entries for a while, those who know me, know that I tend to focus on work and keep myself busy at times like this. So you can all look forward to more advice from others, rather than my daily ramblings. Also I am set to have guest bloggers, only the best, trust me, look out for them! Oh common tell me you're not pleased (LIAR Ha! Ha! Ha!)
Early night, and good vibes, Missing you, missing the Southside.
When I first joined Xanga I marveled because it was so easy to create a site and keep a journal. I remember years before, when I first started learning about computers I was so naive. I quickly learned that knowledge of everything was the key, and from that day on I made every effort to learn everything from hardware to software, from routers to ip addresses. I am still learning to this very day. I am a self confessed geek! I can still hear my professor saying that "In this course only 40% are left at the end of the year, and the girls are the first to leave, good thing there are only 3 of you here! Be careful not to snag your nails on the hardware please". I was so offended by his careless remark that I studied night and day to be the best, to the point where I was helping him (he was only there because he was too scared of the outside world). I was determined to prove him wrong, that women can compete in the IT industry. That being female does not limit our capability to dismantle and build high spec computers.
He is not the first to stereotype, and I know he won't be the last. I am glad because for every moron I meet, will be a challenge to fight back, to make a difference, to shut them down, and put them in their rightful place. I am grateful for the strength my mother gave me, and the principles she instilled in me, they enable me to stand up for what I believe in, and the determination she showed me is forever inscribed in my soul.
I am grateful for every strong emotion that I feel for it becomes the catalyst that holds me true to my word. It gives me renewed strength to do anything and everything to make a point. Obsessive ha! ha! ha! you have no idea. I have friends who have been with me since I was 10, and they know what I will do for friendship, and for those whom I care about. On the other hand I can be your worse enemy. If you make the mistake of evoking evil emotions in me, you give me the invitation to make you my personal crusade. I can't believe a comment can evoke such strong feelings in me, maybe I am just too emotional right now, but I need very little more provocation to start a mission on this girl. Let's hope she can take advice.
"Those who can, do. Those who can't, criticize" Anonymous
6am on the dot and I am still awake, there is nothing like being obsessive. I know I was really angry to begin with, and I almost did something illegal, but I'm glad Trin stopped me, thanks Trin I know I get very vocal and passionate about what I believe in, but sometimes its the only way to get people to realize that in life, not everyone will idly stand by, while someone else acts like Bruce Almighty. Still, thank you for talking to me and calming me down, my temper still needs more control I admit. I am ashamed to say that there is little provocation that would stop me, but you made a good point, and so I bow down (witch HA!HA!). You are right, patience must come from those who are older and wiser, so since I am older I promise you I won't do anything for now, and I will try to show them the courtesy they forgot to show us, but one more provocation and I will make a visit to swbells server, good old earthlink and AT&T . But if I was to be honest swbell is calling me the most, what do you think Trin? I'm just kidding, take a chill pill, or Ima get dem to pwned you. That really doesn't suit me I'm too old after all (LMAO). Physically I can benchpress 110lbs, run at least 15 miles, and beat the crap out of anyone who dares to touch me without consent, therefore I don't feel so old. Maybe its my attempt at youth, BWAHAHAHA. Can youth be attempted now, guess so, oh well, I need to sleep, long night, moronic adventures and a good friend who reminds me to keep calm, hence I love you Trin. Tell me what would you have done if I went through with it, apart from calling me like you did, and almost waking the whole bloody neighborhood. I love you Trin, you are so kind, thanks for the script. I never thought you could do that. If you were a man I would marry you in an instant, shame you're not. *sigh* Nite everyone.
Courtesy of meaniee
I saw this free IPOD offer and decided to have a look. Its legit, so I am posting it. Take note I never post this kind of stuff, but its too good to not share. So off you go and get your IPOD 
. Bear in mind you have to click on an offer. I chose the Video professor, but the other offers are free, as in no cost to you, you just sign up to try a new product and voila, NEW IPOD!! Click on any ipod below and claim yours, before they stop offering them. OFF you go then 
I got my confirmation the same day, as you can see Whoo whooo!
Thanks Meaniee =)
I saw this on Therapy Girls site then again on AnswerGuys site so I thought I would try it out. Ha! ha! ha!
| How to make a Zeliah |
| Ingredients: 3 parts pride 1 part humour 3 parts joy |
| Method: Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of lustfulness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
of laughter and fun. Okay I promised myself no Drama today. So try the test, then look at the result and laugh, its all in the name of fun, its not LAW, ok well maybe SODS law! I think I am made up of so much more than that, so that is inaccurate to say the least, but it filled in my wallow night so thank you!
I miss you...........
"Love Angel"
I wanna be your love angel....love angel
[Verse One:]
Sit here on the sofa boy
Put your drink on this coaster boy
And just sit back and relax your mind
Cause you're about to have a good time
Cause you been working hard all day
And now its time to get away
Turn your phone and two-ways off
Ill be the only one you need to call
[Bridge:]
I cant wait to give you all this lovin
Cause baby you deserve it
You give me back the real kissin and huggin
Boy tonight Ill be your....
[Chorus:]
Love angel a touch of heaven from me
Love angel my love is all you need
Love angel you can depend on me
Love angel Im gonna be your love angel
[Verse Two:]
First we'll get into the showers boy
And make love for hours boy
Tonight your gonna be all mine
Make the greatest love of all times
And youll wont get enough of my heavens touch
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
[Bridge Two:]
Can you imagine boy you and me going above the sky
Physical attraction follow me Im gonna be your guide
Chain reaction once we start boy we cant stop
You and me climaxin we'll be taking this love straight to the top
[Chorus]
[R.Kelly:]
Yea... JS... Said somebody's... Whoo... Callin me...
Hello Ladies from around the way
I thought I heard somebody call my name
I'm here to take you out this pourin rain
And cuddle you just like a small cafe
Soothe your body and put your mind at rest
You don't believe me then ask JS
From the sofa to the bed to the floor
I'm bout to take you straight through Heaven's door
[Chorus]
[JS]
However you want me to touch you boy.
However you want me to feel you boy.
However you want me to kiss you boy
[Both]
I'll do it, I'll do it, I'll do it [repeat untill fade
Ria for passing your RN exam. She is now an RN ( o ha! meron kayo non? ah e di wala LOL). I am so proud of you Mare. You did it!!. I knew you would coz you are one of the most hardworking women I have met. The hardwork, late nights, long studying time, and every single sacrifice you ever made has paid off. You deserved this Mare, and you should be very proud, coz I am so proud of you. You are such an inspiration to others.
I met Ria in 2000, and we became long distant friends. We just shared the same crazy ideas. For 4 years it hasn't changed we still talk to each other in the same way, but now we are closer in distance. 4 years Mare, has it been that long? Even in London she would call me just to say hello. She is one of those friends that once you find you never want to let go. She never forgets to share her life with me, and when we met for the first time here in Cali, it was amazing, it was as if we had known each other all our lives. Mare thank you for always remembering to call me, for making me a part of your life, for the long days and nights on the phone, for the fun and laughter whenever we go out, for your patience with my obvious hectic schedule, for your care, love and rare friendship, Mare thank you. I also want to wish you a belated Happy Bday. I know it was yesterday, but my computer has been down as you know, and I didn't revive it on time. This morning I finally got it up and running, hence I am now writing my note to you. I miss you Mare, but I know you will be living in Cali in August Whoo hoo, watch out now! We're about to get arrested for possesion of beauty and brains HA! HA! HA! Mare. Luv yah talaga.....
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