September 9, 2004
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18 so young and so reckless. She thought she was untouchable. She sat on the airplane, dressed in something so revealing that you just know she was a problem child. Rebellious to the end. She can do what she wanted right? after all she is 18! and in England thats an adult who can do and say as she/he pleases.
Her mom was there, wow she missed her so bad, seeing her standing in the airport was all she needed to feel at home, her mom had that amazing effect on her. Her voice alone could comfort her through the darkest days of her life. So they hugged and they talked and they make their way HOME. Yep this was home, her country of her birth will always be home. Its the only home she longs for. The house that was made of wood with its floor still of soil, and cobwebs lingering in its rooms.
Everything was different now, as in everything, everyone grew up too! All her friends were just as old as she was, imagine that, yet when she stepped in through that gate, it was like a time machine, instantly she was 12 again, dressed in shabby clothes and smelling like the sun and the street. Home, she was home.
Days passed and she meets a local boy who would take her heart on a spin, only to start the rollercoaster of cheating men in her life. She remembered the all too typical story of two young hearts who fall for each other and like all romantics she fights for what she thought was love at the time. Life at home was difficult, because binding two diffent cultures in a short space of time was destined for trouble, and so she found solace in this boy, only to find he was cheating on her, so here she was dealing with her first heartbreak. It wasn't that hard for she had so many more to choose from, but then again her choice was limited by family restraints, and she was left with one man. A man who was older than her and whom she felt was wiser.
He seemed to be so enamoured by her, and she needed that to heal, and in time she did heal. She gave him her heart because he had the intelligence she always sought after, but then he changed, and she was lost again. She goes back to England carrying more than her bruised pride. That trip home was to changed her life forever. It was to start a growing up phase that to this day she learns from.
Who would have thought a summer vacation would have given her the Christmas present that she would treasure for life. It's been 10 years since they last saw each other the man and this girl who was now a woman,and now she learns she is about to see him again. Scared, yep she is, and unsure yep I am and maybe all I need to do is pray and hope that God will show me the way, give me the strength I need to take my daughter towards her new step, her new chapter. I just want her to be happy. Am I jumping the gun? Maybe. Will it all work out? I dont know, but I will give it my best. All that matters is that she will be happy.
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you have strength and faith...you will do whatever you have to like you always do...
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