August 21, 2004

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  Happy Ending...
  
  
  

  She sings to herself, life is so wonderful right now.  Waking up to find him watching her was bliss, she loved him so much, she was breathing for him only.  She closed her eyes to look back at how it all started.  January 13th 2003, he knew her name, he knew so much about her.  Who would have thought hosting a chat room would bring such popularity, who would have thought she would love someone who was 6000 miles away.  It was internet love, and everyone who knew them was envious for they were so inlove, they would talk to each other at every moment, before they went to sleep and when they woke up.  It was surreal.  He was so real to her, he did all the little romantic things that she just couldn't escape.  She fell slowly but surely, and suddenly he was all that mattered, she walked away from every man who ever loved her, and whom she ever loved.  She would wake up at 7am to wait for his phone call, and as he ate his lunch they would dream of their future together, for that moment distance faded, and time would stand still. They had this time difference pinned down 5 hours wasn't so much after all.  At 12pm he would be home and they would sing and talk to each other until 3pm when he would sleep.  At night she would wake him up so he could go to work, and as he drove to work they would talk to each other about anything and everything. This was their everyday, as in every single day.  It was as perfect as it could be.

  
  

  Five months went by so quick and on the 6th month he began to fade. July 31st and the proof became clear, he was cheating on her, she walked away, and he begged her, cried to her, she cried and stupidly took him back.  This time he was clear he wanted her there, he wanted her home with him, inlove and hurting she made the decision.  That night she laid on her bed, and thought about everything, about everyone and what she would have to give up.  This was her test, this was her moment to prove how much she loved him.  She bought the ticket 3 days after, and within two weeks, she had given up her brilliant job, said goodbye to most of her friends, and sold and gave away everything she ever owned.  She was almost ready, everything was falling into place. He must have loved her right? He must have done.  Everything he did to win her back, convinced her he loved her, he didn't let her go, and chose her, he must have loved her, right? When she tried to leave him he cried so hard he couldn't breath.  She sat and stared outside her window towards the lights of the city and tried to comfort herself and convince herself that he does love her. He does.

  
  
  

  Two weeks before her flight and she calls him, yeah she always calls him now, she never even realized he had stopped calling her way back in April, and she just called him to save him money since he spent so much on his last trip home.  The cell rings and she has those butterflies again, its that anticipation.  He answered without realizing, and she hears him with another girl making out, making out! No! No! No! her world fell apart that day.  She listened as he told the other girl all the sweet things he used to say to her, and all she could do was gasp.  She was broken on August 21, and her life will never be the same again, for she had lost everything, no job, no home, nothing, she gave up everything for this lying, cheating RAT.

  
  

  What must she do know, where can she go, she sat in her office, behind her desk, she had a secretary for the first time, imagine that, a 28 year old asian girl, an IT manager, with a house of her own with everything going for her, now she had nothing, and she can never turn back, she was too far into it.  So despite two weeks of not eating and crying, she took her flight, and he was there at the airport.  Can she ever be with him, she knew the answer so well.  She knew it can never be, she will never trust him.  Those 5 days were a blur, and numb she left him.  The next 3 months of tears where she thought suicide was the only end, but she got through it.  She also found out he was married twice, and he was cheating on her from the very beginning,  how could he pretend?  How could he do that to her?  How could he live with himself, knowing what she had to go through to get to him? HOW?

  
  

  Some scars are so deep they continue to sting despite time, when will she let the hatred go?  When will she walk away from the pain? When will she learn to truly trust again? When will she meet the one to make it all go away? The one to heal this wound?  When will she find her Happy Ending.....

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