August 19, 2005
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Where does inspiration come from? For about a year I wrote my thoughts and never hesitated. It seems a couple of months ago, time and mood and everything else conspired to encourage a writers block that I can't seem to shift. This is suprising even to me since I just write how I feel. There is no agenda, no plot, no masterplan, no start and ending. I just wrote for Luna, and for me I guess put simply I was going through some major drama and didn't feel the need to share the negativity.
There is something to be said about negativity and positivity. It's like when you see someone and they are having a bad day, it stands to reason that if they are frowning, it affects your mood too. Like seeing someone smile or laugh, more often than not it affects your own emotion too. Try it!
The people around me have played such an integral part in the way I feel, without me even realizing, and I have had a tremendous impact on them. For weeks now I was wondering whether Luna's irritability was due to the holidays, boredom, blah blah, but part of it is because of me, because I am so miserable all the time. I'm still as OCD as they get but lately I just could not be bothered by others. I began to lose my inspiration, and my enthusiasm for a lot of things. Isn't that terrible?
I guess it was becoming monotonous. It was starting to overwhelm me. Then today...Let me take you back.
So we are lying on the bed, after waking up, and all she said was. "I have to get you back mom" to which I replied "Yeah right for what?" She said "you fell asleep last night and when I asked you to cuddle me, you just put out your arms like this and ended up hugging yourself " Laughing now I said "So I did hug someone" Confused she asked "who?" giggling I said "Me" Upon which followed a ticking session with stomachs hurting soon afterwards. Then she said it just, matter of fact like "Its nice to see you laugh Ma" .....Yeah baby its nice to laugh again.
When someone smiles at you, its like a catalyst for your own smile, even when you feel bad, you still try to reflect that smile in your own way. I wonder what the world would be like if we always tried to give a smile to everyone around us, and what more if we all tried to find a way to make those we love smile. That would be such a great world to be in. A simple smile can go a long way in helping someone have a better day. Take the time today to just smile to everyone around you, share the joy. You will be suprised at how happy you feel, once you smile. You are alive, you have people who love you and whom you love also and thats more than enough to smile about.
Simple things, simple life, simply breathtaking. My inspiration was always here, it was right here smiling back at me, whenever I smile. Always reminding me what's important in this world.
Simply amazing.....
Comments (3)
Very beautiful.... I really like your layout. It's funny how we start to think about the simple things and how much it means to us....
its good to have those reminders. The inspiration is everywhere...
simple....you've said the word, if we would just be able to live in a simple way, many negativities would be carried away.....
....btw, probably your inspiration has taken an holiday with mine....
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