June 15, 2005
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Once upon a time a boy named Romeo met a girl named Zeliah and as time passes she falls for him. Later she learns that there is another woman in his life Juliet. They plan so much yet nothing falls into place and Zeliah walks away, to do the right thing, be righteous! Time passes and Romeo comes back unwilling to let go, and once again she breaks, for she adores him so, but quickly walks away from him. Until one day Juliet and Romeo marry, and Zeliah feels a sigh of relief, finally this is the end. She closes her heart and tries to forget, and each time he tells her he loves her, she begs him to stay with Juliet and make it work. Its been more than a year and he keeps coming back, and even though she fights, it was becoming harder and harder to walk away. Until today...
"When you love someone you do the right thing no matter how much it hurts. I let you go not so I can hurt you. I let you go because deep inside I knew that with each encounter and with each day I am capable of loving you more and I have no right to do that, for you already belong to another "
"You reap what you sow"
"Please walk away and forget to come back. Love her as if she and I are one, for as you do, inside my frail heart and in my wildest imagination you've loved me too. I will live my love for you through her, and as you love her back, you give me the love I have always dreamed of. "
If you take something or someone from another, then you will lose the same if not more in your life. Karma is a witch and I am not willing to face her anytime soon
When your heart tries to defy you, and cause you to really look into your morals, that is when you must be strong. We all need to stick to our principles, because that is what separates us from those who PREACH yet never do. In order to be able to look at my daughter in the face I need to show her that when something is wrong, even if in your heart it feels right, then you must do what is morally correct, no matter how much it hurts. I still believe in Karma and more than ever, learning about God through the bible has taught me what is right. If by chance what I did in the past, came back to me I could deal with that, but the thought of it coming back to my daughter is too much for me to even contemplate.
I once said I love no one more than I love my daughter and that will never ever change. She remains more important than any living thing in this world. Therefore my decisions will always reflect her future. I look at her and my decision becomes clear, it is not only easy but amazingly simple.
I want to live my life not only guiding my daughter but becoming her example. I want her to always be proud of the woman who bore her, much as I am proud of my mother, for she loved me with all her heart and she lived her life as best she can for me.
I want the little girl who sits for 2-3 hours every Friday through Bible Study, just silently reading, and never complaining to know that she is worth more than anyone. The beautiful creature that I still can't believe came from me. The one who never lets a day go pass without giving me a card or a letter to remind me how ultimately lucky I am. The one who is with me everyday through every single struggle and every single triumph, however small. The same little girl who sees me as perfect, no matter how imperfect I can be. The only one who continues to love me unconditionally and whom I will truly love for as long as I live.
Today I walk away,
Today I am no longer astray,
Today I turn away from what's wrong,
Today we no longer belong,
Today is the end of what used to be,
Today I began to truly see,
Today I will forget to cry,
Today I will forever say goodbye
The struggle is over and my strength is renewed. It isn't always easy to do the right thing, but if you have a more important reason, you can do anything. My reason is clear, and its the most important of all, she is the reason I breath, time to Exhale...
Comments (5)
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you are one of the few people I believe can do anything...
That is truly amaZing! Soo deep and touching as well. You are a very strong woman and I respect you soo much for that!
Take care Zeliah
*hugZ*
->Valerie<-
Remember this: whatever life throws your way, just keep your head up and that smile on your face. Sometimes that doesn't seem like enough, but you have to be strong and I know you are sis! You have got to be one of the most strongest women that I have the undeniable pleasure of knowing. I love you very much and don't forget that you can call me whenever you need to talk..I'm here! I will never leave!
i say - i'm so proud of you, it's easy to follow our "easy" feelings rather than keeping them under control and give us the opportunity of a better life in the future....
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