February 4, 2005
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Could you be?
I was just listening to this song and I suddenly realized that this song describes how I feel every time. It's true when we are hurt so bad, we begin to doubt our self worth, and our own decisions. They say that the one who ends the relationship recovers faster. UHHMM YEAH! of course, because that person more than likely already prepared for the outcome. Why is it though that it only takes one mistake to make you wary. I guess wary is good, it means that we are learning. I remembering hearing once in a song that "its not ok to have your heart broken, but dont take it out on the next one." If I was to be honest to myself I know that with each heartbreak was a lesson learned and an even bigger desire to just protect my heart. Its human nature, survival instinct, or so they say. I guess what I realized today was that everybody suffers a broken heart one way or another, but if you don't take that wall down, chances are its lonely behind those walls, the problem with security is that sometimes it isolates you from everything. Am I babbling, aaahhh I keep running it through my head and I guess put simply it is this. When your heart is so protected to the point that its housed within a steel wall, you will find that no one is able to break it, but then no one is able to touch it too. Where is the fine balance? I believe that its a simple matter of just believing in yourself and believing that one day if you keep trying it will work out. Nobody ever succeeded in anything through giving up.
When you feel that its right then give yourself a chance, because that feeling when you meet someone that you really like, thats rare! It's not an everyday thing that happens to everyone, be open but open your eyes too. I still believe in the One for each person in this world, and that one is the one that you deem right for you. If you never give up, one day you will find that what you are looking for is just around the corner.
Just read the lyrics, and listen to the song, because I think they've explained it better than I ever could.
The One
See I'm going through a situation
That I can't help
Wanna get a little closer
But I promised myself
That I would never give my heart
Away again
Oo oo babe, I know it's hard
But yah gotta understand it
The truth is all the hurt and the pain
And the shit that you get
When you have it
Ain't worth it
I've been there so many times
I should know better but I
Can't stop what I feel
When you're next to me
I really think I
Finally found somebody
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(Baby you're the one)
(Baby you're the one)
See the problem with relationships
In general is that it's always a game
In the beginning they'll do
Anything to have you
And once they do it's never the same
And I, know everyone out there can relate
So the question is
One: do I really wanna trust this feeling
Two: do I wanna let it pass me by
Three: do you think it's only superficial
Four: could it actually be different this time
Someone to love me
Someone to be my everything
Maybe I've stumbled upon
Finally found somebody (The only one)
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love (No, no)
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (I just don't wanna be hurt)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(But boy I think you might be the one)
Finally found somebody
That could be the one (Maybe I've found)
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (Boy I'm so afraid)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
('Cause I know you're the one)
Oh baby
Sweet darling
I
I think I finally found
Finally found somebody (The only one)
That could be the one
But I promised myself
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous (No)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
(I don't wanna be hurt anymore)
This is bad 'cause I know that you're the one
(But I think you might really be the one)
Finally found somebody
Could be the one, but I promised myself (Finally found)
That I wouldn't give in to love
(I promised myself not to give in)
And I'm scared
And I'm nervous
This is bad
(Anymore this is bad)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
('Cause I know that you're the one)
Finally found somebody
Could be the one
(I finally found somebody that could be the one)
But I promised myself
(But I promised myself that I wouldn't give in to love)
That I wouldn't give in to love
And I'm scared
(And I'm scared)
And I'm nervous
(And I'm nervous)
Don't wanna be hurt anymore
This is bad
'Cause I know that you're the one
(Please, please baby baby)
I guess I am truly stubborn because I refuse to let the past hold my heart prisoner, its bad enough having your heart broken, but when you let them change the way you view yourself, love or others, well that pretty much sucks! Valentines day is coming close and everyone is more open in order to find their Valentine. I wish it would be valentines day everyday, that way this love in the air atmosphere would always stay. Be honest who is your valentine, go on, don't be shy? You can even email it to me. I won't tell, not straightaway
unless you ask me to.
Aaahhh nite nite im so tired, sweet dreams
Comments (15)
Thanks for checking by my page once again hun! I really wish I could hear the song...but here where I am working today I don't get sound....let alone good picture hehe..
Anyways the lyrics are lovley, and it is very true... Once your heart has been broken once...or more then it's only natrual to build up a wall to protect yourself. I have been wtih my bf for 2 years...and I am still opening up to him because of the past.. It's really hard to start over and let someone in once you have built up such a wall to protect yourself.... Baby steps along the way help. It makes it a little hard on the both of us, but I am glad that I've found someone willing to work wtih me..
I have a quote at home...when I get there and find it...I'll come back and share it with you it relates to this post of yours VERY well.
Ahh yes Valentines day. I still say that funny...like I have my whole life I sound like I am 6 when I say Valentine.... I do enjoy this day very much just as most people do...but it is kinda sad in a way that people have ONE day that they go out and do a bunch of things for the one they love....why not express your love everyday...not just one day a year...
I think I have babbled on enough.
*hugs and kisses*
->Valerie<-
Oh...My Valentine is my bf... Harrison <3 (tho I have a few people who I admire online as well.....)
are you asking?
...ok, let me be serious - when you suffer from such a pain like only love pain can be, it is natural to try to "protect" yourself, building the "steel wall" you're quoting....
...but you should know that, building that wall, you also leave a small door, a little escape point, where your heart can be easily escape from the prison and be able again to express all its potential....
...and is the main task of THAT one showing the heart where this door is located....
why am i the one odd ball who was the one who broke another's heart.. and then built my steel wall? gosh darnnit! i feel so left out. lol. j/k
miss you sis. call me soon. i have so much to tell you
You just don't give up, Loving is a mistake sometimes (or most of the time?) but it is worth making. Keep trying and leave the door open, the "right" one is on his way.
My Valentine? hmmm...It's going to be a special Valentine this year. I'll keep you posted.
Hello, thank you for visiting my site again. I do believe me and Phils relationship is geting stronger, but it is hard because i am away from him alot now since ive had to move. Tht song is pretty. I really do enjoy reading ur journal, keep up the good work:) Oh yes beautful picture..
-Crystal
Very nice picture of you,... maybe you can come back and we can talk again...
Hi Zeliah,
May sound a little crazy but your posts keep me grounded. They just make sooo much sense! It's how I like to think and sometimes I get caught up in .... hey ... you know!!! I lose sight of the reality of it all ... then I read your site and it's like a wake up call. Thanx!!! Your right .. I'm a strong woman and although I miss him he obviously wasn't right for me or it would have worked! He couldn't handle the hassles with my kids and so.... now he is gone ... I need someone who I can depend on .. I can't depend on him!!! Hey ... I've survived worse!?! Hope evrything is going well for you ... think of you often and send you happy thoughts.
Jo *hugs*
Hope you're having a great weekend. I'm having to spend it in another state away from my family, which is a bummer, but at least I'm not working very hard. Had plenty of time off today to do some fun stuff.
My valentine is my wife of 22 years. We've had ups and downs, but I love her now more than ever. She's a very special girl.
Of course you know who my Valentine is, and Rog is ditching me because he'll be in Pinas! I think we must know ourselves before we move on to the next "episode" We must somehow sweep up some self- esteem left..throw on some confidence.. get in touch with our past (or forget about it) and put it all behind us. Without knowing ourselves and going through that journey.. we will hold a sense of stubborness, and enjoy being miserable in our sorrows of being afraid of love and loneliness. I don't think there is a fine balance. I think I've tried them all..time..forgetting real fast and date everyone...date no one..cold turkey.. I think its all rather bullshit because I still was neurotic thinking, "why didn't it work?" I don't know if "learning" from the past really works...why is it that I try so hard to learn and remember "mistakes" only to repeat the same mistake with a different guy! I think it does help to stop trying to find "the one", because maybe in essence..you're number "one"! And, who cares about Single Awareness Day (aka..Valentine's day).. its just a forced reason for couples to be romantic for ONE day.
Hey there, I was just stopping by and wanted to say hello. I love your entry. I hope you don't mind if I subscribe. You have wonderful entries. I hope you have a wonderful week! Take care and God Bless!
How are you? Just want to say that I love your page and what you had to say on your entry. It's nice to read things that are worth reading:) Take care.
~Kyla
im sorry i didnt call that one night hun, someone threw out your number. I miss you and love you tons. Hope things are looking up.
Hey there, thanks so much for writing back. I know that the only way that I can get through is by Him. God is the only thing that has been right in my life. I love that He can use us and I love that He is truly alive in my life. =) Anyway, I love your entries and your pictures! They are so inspiring! Well hun I hope you have a wonderful weekend!!! Take care and God bless!!!
no valentine for me, I'm not a big fan of valentines day. I hope you have a great weekend Zeliah take care!!
~Torie~
you are getting closer to where you need to be. Even you can see that...
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