December 13, 2004

• Only Time
  
  I can still  feel your heart beat next to mine
  fooling me into thinking all is fine
  I'm encased in this harmony. 
  Bewildered in this fantasy
   
  I still find it hard to forget
  who you are and how we met
  but in me lies a newfound strength
  to keep walking and go thats extra length
   
  To wake from a sorrow slumber
  Aware that the pain is over
  You are now a beautiful memory
  belonging to almost, could be?
   
  I still hold your pictures close
  smile, for no one truly knows
  the love I once felt was beyond compare
  a pure kind heart and a soul so rare
   
  Thank you for all that you've given me
  for teaching me as you set me free
  that in this life you will meet many
  but only a few will be extraordinary
   
  I can once again feel that silent peace
  In my life you were the coolest breeze
  the rainbow after the storm
  the magical entity out of the norm
   
  Who knows when a broken heart mends?
  Who knows when it heals again?
  Who knows when we will love once more?
  Who knows when we can begin to open that door?
   
  I found the answer today
  As I sat in silence to pray
  I was enveloped in a light so sublime
  He whispered quietly.........Only time.
  Copyright Zeliah 2004
  

  It's been a fast paced week,  so much to write about yet only one point really plays in my mind.  I love the picture above, its designed from my favorite film Sweet November.  I love the diversity that they both have, the complete opposite way of living and the discovery that they found in life and each other.  I'm still a sucker for a love story, but this one did not have a happy ending, it still had a good ending though.

  
  

  How do you know when its right?  How do you know when its time?  When do you take that final step?  Like is full of questions, and some of them are really hard to understand, let alone answer.  I think that in life and in love time really helps.  I find that I was able to heal all on my own, and although it never dissappears, you learn to deal with it better.  Finally I can say I began to move on, now I am able to just open my hands and let go.  It's as if all the hurt and pain and confusion was trapped within me, and only when I opened my heart and my hand, did I feel a sense of peace. 

  
  

  I cannot believe just how much is happening. I have been writing, but mostly private, but I will be making a protected list soon, to publish at least those writings I had kept private since March.  I managed to finish our business site, more on this next entry.

  
  

  I think about Christmas and rejoice for this is the time when families get together.  I feel like I have met some amazing friends and they are so much my family.  I still miss my mom and my sister will be home tomorrow, thank goodness.  I never realized how much she did, until she left, now I have a new profound respect for her.  Some new friends who I feel so blessed to have met, my little sis T.  You are amazing girl, thanks for being there. 

  
  

  The picture above is dedicated to my Kabet Malou who never fails to call me for no reason rather than to just say hello.  I miss you Kabet.  I love you very much.  Belated Happy Birthday to you. I'll be home soon.

  
  

  Its time for bed.  Please take the time to appreciate the people who are around you and who play an important part in your life, however small, you will be suprised at how easy it is to say a heartfelt thank you, but more importantly how amazing it feels to be appreciated.  Make sure you let those you love know just how much you love them.  Nothing should ever be taken for granted in this world, for no one knows what the future holds......Only time.

  
  

  Nite  

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