September 22, 2004
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Blessed
I never dreamed I would have to make such a difficult decision, but this afternoon I made it. It takes great courage to say what needs to be said even if it hurts, and it takes strength to make a decision that can change your life, but in my life I have learned that being true to myself has enabled me to live my life without fear or guilt. I have decided to be alone, not choosing anyone for I would rather be alone than be with someone who does not love me.
I wish there was an easier way, but I know there isn't, nevertheless thank you. I am sorry.
If everyone lived their lives being true to themselves then it would save a lot of heartbreak, and if lying wasn't so easy then people would tell the truth and save others the heartache. If you live your life unable to be true to yourself, and to others then you have nothing, for your words will mean nothing and your life will mean even less. Why can't people just speak from their heart and be strong enough to be real, rather than pretend to be someone that they might not be. I learned so many lessons this past week that my head is spinning. Strength is a rare thing in a woman, and real love is something that will only scare you if you don't know what it means.
Good night guys I need sleep, and I am going to apologize now, but I think it will be a while before I write an entry again, if I ever do. I was really thinking this will be my last entry, but only time will tell.
Thank you to everyone who took and takes the time to read my entries I am so very grateful and I will continue to read your entries even if I never write on here again. I need a break from writing. I need to procrastinate if only... Thank you to everyone who is subscribed to me, and the 100+ people who come to read my ramblings every single day. Thank you and God Bless.
Comments (10)
thanks for talking to me just now. Sometimes it's hard to make a decision but once u made it u will hold on to it with no regret. all the best to u
it's true...if people are being honest at the first place, everything will not be so complicated. Write again soon. Take care .
~fran~
I don't comment often.. and I've missed a lot lately. But I really do admire the way you look at things. So positive and hopeful... it rubs off on your readers. I know it has rubbed off on me. I hope you decide to come back to blogging.. I enjoy your posts.. and your honest look on life.
I'll catch ya on yahoo soon I hope!
ohhhh.. I MIGHT .. in the next year or so... be moving out your way! How cool would that be?!?! Now I just have to save up $.. and line up a job out there. wheeeeeeeeeee!
the best way to give love is to let go. ... it's too bad that you're thinking of not writing anymore here. but i do hope that you continue writing for you have a beautiful way of weaving wondrous words together. Good luck =)
Nataly, you don't need to thank me for yesterday, for it was truly my pleasure to help you in your time of need. I wish you nothing but the best for you and you have my number, so please do not hesitate to call me. I'll always be here whenever you need someone to listen to you......someone to lean on for support...a shoulder to cry on..ANYTHING! I mean these words from the bottom of my heart and nothing will change what I tell you now. I love you like I love my family. You mean a lot to me and your never-ending wisdom will be with me. I do hope that you'll keep in touch. Mahal Kita sis!
Amanda
well, hope you feel better?!
it is good to have a break...things will get more interesting and better with your life that is for sure...
whether u want to hear or or not
i miss you ...
Ronny x
gessh i dont even know what to say other than i believe the right decision was made... i admire your strength...and i'm here if ya need to talk..
" Its not when you ask me to stay and I stay that will show you how much I love you, it is when you let me go and I choose to stay. "
That's so profound. It sucks to get hurt, but I guess each experience teaches us a lesson. I hope everything turns out OK for you.
Peace.
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